Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Vacation Days

I'm excited for a four day weekend coming up. It's been a long week at work, even though it was only the three days.

I've had "writing" at the top of my "must do" list for so long, but now that the book is out (did I already say that? IT IS) it feels odd to have a long weekend and not feel the pressure of writing.

I had a few moments when I thought - Do I really want to be a writer?

The answer was yes, but it felt interesting to run the idea around the track.

I do see that I need to have some creative balance, and explore other activities that can feed my energy and feel fun and adventurous rather than like a job.

So this weekend I'd like to start thinking about other creative projects I might enjoy.

So friends, what creative activities fill your soul?

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Book Video - Oh Boy!

I made a little book video. My first video ever - I don't think I need to tell you the cats may never live a quiet life of solitude again.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Nervous and Excited

The date for the book release is drawing closer and I feel nervous and excited for it to arrive. I'm working on correcting a few little things in the files and making a book video.

Part of me wonders if a book video helps at all... what do you think friends?

Do you like to have a little author insight into a book you're reading?

After you've read it?

Do you like knowing what the author of a book looks like?

Thanks for participating in my ramble for the day!

Sunday, April 3, 2016

And We're Back

It's been a long time since I've posted on this blog my friends. I can't say I'll post too often. How about, I'll post when I feel compelled to say something, rather than feel compelled because of some external force.

Today I'm posting to say my book, which began as a screenplay is about to be out. Pain By Proxy is up for pre-sale on the e-book stores.

Isn't the cover pretty? My big sis made it!
It'll go live on the 16th of April and I'm super excited... and a little scared.

It's been such a long journey, and it hasn't been easy, and now for better or worse, it's over. I worry that I'm throwing a party and no one will come. I suppose that's the way you always feel when you finish a creative project.

You put your heart and soul into something, and then you put it out into the world to find it's place. You hope it'll find acceptance, and no one will take it's lunch money.

In these moments of fear and doubt, I wonder why I felt it necessary to do it at all... because I did feel it was necessary. I tried to ignore the call, and it wouldn't leave me. I have to trust there was a reason, and a purpose, and give up my fears.

So off into the world you go, little booky. Play nice with the other books! And if anyone's mean to you, well you know what to do - I made you strong and capable of kicking butt for a reason.

Monday, November 25, 2013

So Exciting

I am feeling pretty excited! I had sent my screenplay off to a "Coverage Service." It's similar to editing for a novel. They rate your script on things like concept, dialogue, characters and plotting. They also give it an overall rating.

My overall rating was a Strong Consider, which is very good for a first attempt. Not yet a Recommend but pretty close. I am so happy to know I was on the right track.

My little script has "a truly original premise, a compelling plot, memorably complex characters and strong dialog throughout." Yippee!! He said my antagonist was sheer cinema candy and might be the sexiest character ever devised. Who knew?   

The Coverer (not sure that is a real term) had a couple of concerns regarding the plot in the middle sections and I think I was able to fix his concerns. So hopefully the next time someone reads it, someone who would buy it, they will. Of course that's the hard part - getting it into the hands of the right person.

It's a bit daunting, but I am just going to follow my instincts and hope that the Universe wants to help. I'm hopeful that someone will help me navigate the waters of Hollywood and avoid the sharks.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Breaking Rules

I was starting to work on my first assignment for my class and I was really struggling. Since it's about embracing your imperfections I thought maybe I should just do the assignments very plainly - nothing fancy - just the facts. It didn't feel like me. It did not feel - happy. I don't want to feel like I have to be perfect, but I do want to be true to myself - and I am a sparkly and glittery person. I don't want to be that serious.

I've decided to embrace my inner rule breaker and make my art journal in an old book I'd bought years ago on the discard table for .25 cents. I gathered up all my pretty iridescent powders and placed it all in a pile for after work.

I was sitting at my desk this afternoon in a boring conference call and I looked over and... Yep friends I made my art tags in the middle of a conference call! I had more fun than anyone has a right to at work. An hour later my call was over and I'd completed my assignment. I was so joyful.

Sometimes breaking the rules, and a little glitter, is all you need.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Fitting In

I signed up to take an e-course (by Oprah and Brene Brown) on Embracing Your Imperfections. I have quite a few to embrace. It's all about learning to embrace who you are and stop caring what everyone else thinks. Something I was surprised that I really do care about, and that I wish I didn't so much.

I had the funniest reaction to my required supply list. It was a short list:
  • A watercolor journal.
  • Watercolor paints. 
  • Brushes.
  • Markers.
  • Double-sided tape. 
Over the years of my artistic struggle, I have amassed a rather large collection of art supplies. I knew I had watercolor pencils (unused) and I felt pretty sure I had a pad of watercolor paper. Yet I wasn't really sure where they were, and the idea of getting "new" supplies had me planning a trip to the art store.


Friday I looked over at the bookshelf in my office and there they were - the pad and the pencils. It was like they were sitting there just waiting for me to need them. Suddenly all this anxiety started to come up inside me.

It wasn't the "official" supplies, which meant I was going to be breaking the rules. I was suddenly back in high school, and I couldn't afford the "right" shoes for gym. I was teased cruelly for the knockoff Vans my mom had purchased. I didn't want to be different then and I didn't now - I wanted to fit in. I wanted to do the assignment correctly and be given an e-pat on the back.

Then another thought occurred to me - I was also afraid I would do a good job and be called out for cheating because I didn't have the right supplies.So essentially I couldn't win.

If I caved and got new supplies, then I was just losing the point of the class. If I did well, then maybe I was cheating. If I did poorly, I could blame my failure on not having the right tools. So my default is to be mediocre by design. I hate that. If I'm going to stink or soar at something I want to do it organically not by my own grand design.