It's funny how the oddest things sometimes can cause you to move forward.
Maybe I'm not alone, but I admit I have a few blocks that keep me from being what I most want to be. Blocks for me come down to one thing, fear. Fear that stands between me and the destiny I feel has been laid out for me. Destiny that I seem to fight for reasons I do not always understand.
I spent so many years floundering down different creative paths trying to find where I fit. My family is filled with talented artists and I tried to follow their footsteps, but nothing ever felt right. Painting was hard. Drawing was impossible. Sculpture was laughable.
Writing was easy. I thought that it must be easy for everyone.
When I realized that writing was the path for me I was thrilled. What had always been easy would certainly continue to be so right? Wrong. Suddenly what had been easy - also became hard. I started to get hung up on the same things I did before - just dressed in a new form. Fear was back - not as paralyzing - but everything became difficult again.
I plan on busting down those blocks one at a time because I am tired of them being in my way. Maybe my sharing those blocks with you will help you to clear out blocks of your own, or at least it will help me to really get past them myself. I think that once fear sees the light of day it's going to be harder to go back to being a block. Let's get ready to rumble!
I think my life has been blocked for decades, in one way or another. Ha. Now I don't care, now if I get through the day and all's well at the end, it's good.
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Good luck with *your* blocks!
We have an expression "Gonna knock your block off" meaning punch someone. So perhaps there could be a collective effort at knocking some blocks into oblivion!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the post, Meg! Allot of wisdom there about not letting fear be a block. Until I read your post, I didn't realize that is exactly why I haven't made some decisions lately that I really need to make. We will rumble and bust blocks together!
ReplyDeleteThat is so true. I have a decision I have to make but haven't been able to make it. I know it is fear that is blocking me from making it, and it is a decision that I alone can make. Okay, I've got this far, I may as well continue. My doctor at the hospital has suggested I see a geneticist as my mother died aged 50 from cancer, (the anniversary of her death was the same day I was diagnosed) and my father was 36 when he died of leukemia. He said they will tell me how high a risk I have of developing another cancer and I am trying to decide if I really want to know. Sorry, I didn't intend writing as much, but once I got started.......
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