Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Off and On

Week three of my new job and I swing wildly from feeling like I may be getting it, and other moments when I am equally sure I am not. I have one foot in trainee mode and the other foot in doing real work. Neither footing feels particularly firm at this moment.

I'm sure it will all pass in time. There will come a day when I will say "I got this" - I just hope it comes sooner rather than later. In the meantime I will hold my head frequently so as not to allow it to burst.

I'm so grateful to have a new job. I really do feel it found me as much as I found it, so I have full faith that it will all be okay. Deep breath. I guess I am just not used to being this out of my depth at work - at home, that's another story.

I don't know what to do with my kitty blog. My girl is doing better than expected, but she's not doing much in the way of pawparazzi-worthy frolicking. I go from being sure I should try again to retire the blog for now, to being sure I should find another way to make it all work (cat-a-lympics headquarters, get a new kitten, or who knows what else).

I need to get back to writing again too. I've been on too long of a break from it and I feel out of sorts as a result.

I need to find my center. In the meantime thanks for reading my rantings. I hope to rally very soon.

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  1. I think your girl's reaction to a new kitten would provide an over abundance of blog fodder!

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    1. That is for sure but I wrestle with the fact that I don't think my old girl would appreciate it much. LOL

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  2. Khyra says you know what would liven up things...

    Just sayin'

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  3. Finding a center is difficult sometimes...often I feel like flotsam but then when I am 'on the mark' I know I have direction but then that feeling peters out and well, I am just glad I have the kitties to keep me grounded, hahahmeow.

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    1. Yes kitties do help don't they. So calm.

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  4. Well, I think that only ONE cat is unnatural...

    In other news, you just DID write something! So there.

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    1. Oh yeah this is writing too isn't it... thanks!

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  5. Well, today's post was great. We all really just want to keep up with Finny and how she's doing. Thank you for sharing that. xoxo

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    1. She is still holding her own, thank Cod!

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  6. Katnip Lounge WOULD say that!!! HEY! That means Katie is unnatural??? ....actually, she couldn't be more right! haha! You should do whatever brings you joy. We'd love to see you back in the cat blogging game. You were the first to take us under your wing so we get kind of sentimental. Ok, I get senti and Katie gets mental.
    ; ) Glogirly

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    1. Thanks for the laugh GG! Yeah, I guess I'm not ready to give it all up.

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  7. I would let go of any concerns or fretting over what to do with the cat blog. I was on the verge of letting it go and leaving the CB altogether--just too stressful to keep up--but once you let go of any self-imposed obligations or whathaveyou, things seem to work themselves out.

    Give yourself some "space" and time to get into the swing of the new job and focus on other things. Eventually you'll do what feels right with Fin's blog.

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    1. Thanks for that. I am too hard on myself I think.

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  8. getting used to a new job is exhausting, so don't worry about blogging. However, having said that, you are a writer and you need to write! Coming from a one cat household, I can see the attraction of another kitty! So what about if I send you Austin? :D

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    1. I think Austin would mind... but maybe he speaks Spanish? Course I don't think I can help there either.

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  9. Laurie and the "Girls"March 15, 2012 at 8:24 AM

    You will rally sooner than later! Change is never easy! I miss Finn but am really enjoying your blogs as much or more! So please keep posting whether its you or Finn!

    Laurie and The "Girls"

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    1. Thanks Laurie! That made my day!

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  10. I was reminded of what a recruiter/trainer told me one time.
    It is summed up in this:

    http://nurgling.livejournal.com/10764.html

    It's the Four Stages of Competency - like learning to tie shoe laces. Check it out - it always makes ME feel better when I am starting something new and I have used it in training others.

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    1. Thanks! I am definitely at conscious incompetence at some moments.

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  11. Give it time...it takes months to get into the swing of things on a new job! As for a new kitten....oh how that would be awesome, but don't tell Finny I said that. You might want to wait until your head is no longer bursting!

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